Monday, January 28, 2008

ive been awake for days

little did i know 8 months ago how much of a toll life would take on me and my friends. i thought it would only get easier in the confines of the campus, home, and work. those people who always preached about the real world weren't idiots afterall. but they did little to prepare us for it. they gave us strict curfews and sheltered us from the things that we should know and experience. we were thrown, blind-folded, off a cliff into frigid water. some of us are experienced swimmers and others are lucky if they dont sink like bricks. i find however; most of us are just treading water praying... waiting... hoping someone will rescue us.
i hate the fact that my best friend cant talk to me about whats bothering her. i may not fully understand but i love her. she found her life raft in a counselor. its a relief she has something to hold onto when the water gets really rough. but i want to help her. i want to be there for her like shes been there for me. im tired of hearing everything is ok. when it couldnt be further from it.
we are all struggling. trying to stay out of the under-toe that could take us under.

1 comment:

Ember said...

Little do friends realize that when they keep things inside, hidden from those that really care--it hurts us more than they'll ever know. Tell her you're there for her and if she doesn't open up, then you can't fault yourself because you tried your hardest.