lighting the cigarette

so, i have the highest suceptibility(sp?) to addiction than anyone i know. tattoos, cigarettes, gum, men. i dont understand it. why i like all these things that arent necessarily good. and why the worst things are so easily habit forming.

tattoos give that high, adrenalined feeling. you surrender yourself to the process of the pain and allow it to overcome your thinking. as you sit in the chair with someone putting their name, theoretically of course, on your body you give up all control. you allow yourself to wonder. and when you come back to the present halfway through the feeling that you're altering your body for the rest of your life hits you. you jumped into the deep end of something you cant return and undo. you give up a small portion of yourself and its replaced by a small portion of the artist.

when you light that cigarette and inhale for the first time, you can actually feel everything melting away. uhm, actually...just try yoga. or breathe in really deeply, hold it, and exhale. its exactly the same. its something you try just to try... and ta'da...ur hooked. NICOTINE BABY!

gum just replaces the cigarette. you gotta have SOMETHING in your mouth.

men are grab bags at Al's All You Can Eat. you never know what your going to get. and it all depends on what you're in the mood for. alot of times you end up settling for something you dont really want b/c the outside looks so tempting. but sometimes hotdogs are better than sirloin wrapped in bacon. especially if its cooked right.